This past year has been one of the most difficult I can remember.
No, there hasn’t been any deaths, or illness, or injuries, nor financial difficulties or anything like that. We’re warm & incredibly well fed. Our family got a little larger. We had bigger gardens, larger herds, a larger home. We were very blessed indeed.
But it was still a rough year. I just couldn’t get it together!
I worked myself to bone weary day in and day out trying to care for all those facets of the homestead and my flesh often found itself grumbling and complaining. “This is the simple life?! It doesn’t feel very simple to me at all!”
It often felt like my head was going to explode with the details of managing it all. The list of things that needed attended to would run through my head like a broken record. A pen and paper were my best friends and I wasted far too much time looking for lost notes for, the problem being that once my brain lets that information flow through the pen out onto the paper, it’s lost.
What frustrated me even more was that here I was so disenchanted with the simple life… the very lifestyle I promote and encourage you all to embrace! I felt like an ungrateful hypocrite. And so I was.
But it hasn’t always been like this so what set this year apart as being different? Was it the move? Another new job for my husband? Figuring the in and outs of the new homestead?
Probably it was a bit of all of the above.
But it was definitely a lot of having one foot in two worlds where we home-farm and have to work a real job to support it. A challenge that most of us homesteaders have to face.
A challenge that I know so many of you long to have.
I know that another thing that contributed to my frustrations was I found myself extremely disorganized and spinning my wheels trying to get things in order when they were already out of control. You know, time that would better have been spent actually working!
Well as anyone with children or animals knows, they make sticking to a plan tough!
Without my detailed agenda for the day right there in front of me, getting distracted was all too easy to do, things were forgotten, neglected, and allowed to get out of control. We’d laugh in frustration time and again this year, shrug our shoulders, and say, “If you give a pig a pancake…”
While I wouldn’t change this beautiful, messy life for anything, there’s nothing to say that it has to feel so hopelessly out of control!
I can’t help the fact that we have to work in the real world for now or the cog in the wheel all the kids and critters can throw into a day, or any of the other factors that make for a rough day, but I do have control over how I manage my homestead and can strive to find simplicity thorough organization.
In 2015, I’m recognizing my need for structure, routine, planning, embracing and utilizing all of the organizational tools that have worked so well for me in the past, and am going to put my Home Management Binder system back to work!
I am filled with new-year hope that there can be some simple in our simple lives. That I’ll be able to take ahold of those small and precious moments without the distraction of busyness that clouds the vision from ever noticing them. That I’ll be deliberate and fruitful and an example of joy to my children who are ever watching, ever learning.